This has happened to me earlier as well. Every time I almost lost my faith in humanity and is about to alienate myself from everyday happiness and sorrows, I am brought back to life. Like that sudden gust of wind, invisible yet so real. Today I am back again to live, cherish, mourn, smile… In fact, it was yesterday only, when I finally decided to go and tell my neighbour who stays two floors above my flat to stop throwing water down their balcony that variably showers down to my balcony and creates puddles all over it.
It had become a routine as a sudden gush of water, without any warning or fixed timing, would come down running from two floors above us and soil my clothes hanged out to dry in the balcony. And every time, I would wash them again muttering the choicest of cusses under my breath. Thank god for those desi gaalis. If not anything or anyone, you can always rely on them for support. Honestly, they have great healing power. Just stand in front of a mirror, mouth them aloud recalling the faces of all your real and imaginary enemies. As they tumble out like oranges from a bag, gaalis leave behind a soothing sensation in your mouth and soul.
Most of my anger manifests from the fact that the water from above ends up creating large stains on my laundry hanging on the clothesline. The hapless I have no option, but to wash my clothes again. This routine went on for a few months. I always felt like going and telling my tormentors about my precarious situation. Somehow I could not muster the courage. More than courage, I was slightly confused how would I approach them (strangers) with my personal problem. Was it okay to go and have a word with them or to keep suffering silently. Finally, I decided to bring an end to it when I saw my almost dried clothes soaked in mud water again yesterday.
I took the stairs and rang their doorbell. First, the lady of the house appeared. Immediately I introduced myself, as we never crossed each other’s path and told her the reason for my unannounced visit. She mumbled something, which I could not understand. All I could figure out was that they watered their plants some time ago. I politely requested her not to do so.
Soon, I found the man of the house standing in front of me. Looking at his face, I knew he was ready to shoot me. Like some principal of a school he wanted to check my house to find out if I was lying. I politely disagreed, as I was alone at the house at that time. I tried to tell him my problem again. His defence was: “It’s my hobby to grow plants and I will water them. Nobody can stop me,” he told me as I looked baffled. On the contrary, he asked me, “What do you do when it rains?” “My simple answer was rain water was not dirty. Probably, he thought he was next to rain god and humans are at his mercy.
I was slightly angry by then. However, I tried to talk some sense into him. I suggested him to call a plumber to connect the pipes of his balcony to the drains down. He refused. I asked him to keep his plants in his other balcony. He told me it was already full with potted plants. Still I did not give up. I asked him to keep his plants in his drawing room or on the corridor. Of course, how could I forget that plants needs sunlight? How could I be so anti-environment?
Immediately, he growled. “Madam, plants need sunlight. Can't you see?” I wanted to tell him, I could see a lot of things and the most apparent among them was his arrogance and insensitivity. By that time, I could feel a sudden heat in my cheeks. Anger was growling inside my stomach. I blurted out, you are an arrogant, insensitive man. And, I left the place. I could clearly hear the door slammed behind and a loud "thank you, madam" from the man who till a few seconds ago was full of vim and vigor and gave a good fight to protect his right to pursue his hobby, even if at the cost of others.
I felt like a fool taking some 40 stairs up and down to request someone to take care not to throw water down their balcony. I realized I should have understood earlier that those who throw water on the road or balcony or anywhere else know it well that it would be a cause of trouble for others. But it gives them that thrill and of course, they have hazaar excuses. I felt the same thing when on so many occasions vehicles zoomed past me on waterlogged roads without caring about the mud water drenching the pedestrians, as they coyly negotiate the potholes. It is not that drivers behind the wheels can’t see the road ahead, or they have blurred vision, it is the thrill to see shit on terrified faces who walk like some ants on the roads.
I was upset, slightly humiliated and desperately wanted an outlet to vent out the simmering volcano inside me. I came home and went to the washroom and did two things. Washed the clothes again and released all my pent up anger as buckets of water drowned and swallowed all the mud from my clothes and mind.
Probably, I would not have cared to narrate the above incident had it not been for what I am going to tell you now. I prefer to bury bad experiences in some unknown corners of the mind as I feel I could be wrong. May be people who abuse and make you feel small don't do it deliberately and thus there's no point telling them how you feel.
But as they say, not all hope is lost. What I'm going to tell you now will remain with me forever. Whenever, I'll feel the whole world is disintegrating and devoid of kind people, I will recall this one incident with every small detail. It happened just a few hours after the incident above. As usual the lady who comes to clean my home came and was in a hurry to leave. As she was about to leave, I handed her an envelope of money, her monthly salary. She counted the notes and said thank you to me. The thank you was something I realized because she had asked for a hike and we gave it. Moreover, she went on an unannounced leave for 15 days and was perhaps expecting us to deduct her salary to half.
It has been more than two years that she has been working for us. Every year she goes on leave twice, around 15 days each. Sundays are holidays for her and she does not come on any of the government and restricted holidays. We have never deducted her salary. It is not that we are generous, but the fact that it would be illogical to do so.
She also works in a garment factory near our house in Marathahalli. Ours is the only house which she cleans and leaves for her factory around 9 am every day.
I know a bit about her life, as she too does about mine. We share our life stories during our conversations every day. She has a daughter and her husband, who is now a caretaker of a palatial house of a rich NRI in Bengaluru, was once working as a supervisor in a garment factory in Peenya. Some five years ago, the factory was closed and she and her husband were forced to leave Peenya to find jobs in Bengaluru. Their only daughter is married with two small children.
After counting the money, she handed me a note of Rs100. Initially, I was surprised, she told me to take the money and buy sweets for myself. I refused, but she persisted. After a while I could see tears welling up in her eyes, I feared she might end up crying if I don’t take the money. She told me I was of her daughter's age and must take the money. Moreover, it was her daughter’s wedding anniversary, she continued. I was nervous and could not say anything. I asked her to bring me sweets from her village whenever she visits. She smiled and asked me if I would like to have saphed peedas (a popular sweetmeat) available at a small confectionery shop near our home.
I smiled, and she immediately got up to go even though I kept requesting her not to do so.
Within 10 minutes, she came back with a box of sweets and gave it to me. I was touched by her love and kindness. This time it was me who was overwhelmed... tears rolled down my cheeks. I wanted to hug her, plant a kiss on her cheeks. I wanted to thank her, wanted to say: “Thank you for healing so many of my invisible bruises.”
Now, I know, I can take a thousand psychological assaults thrown at me everyday by life and yet not succumb. And yes, the saphed peedas were the sweetest I have ever tasted.
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